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Tuesday, June 17, 2008
In my family, there's only mum and me and maybe sis.
10:06 PM Few days ago , I had a big quarrel with my dad and sis. I hate my dad cause he show favourites and always tell lies to my mum. Although my mum is somewhat annoying when she nag. At least she did her part as a mother and give me pocket money every month. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- My dad ? Didt contribute to the family. Come home as and when he like and throw temper at us. Demand respect from us when he doesnt even deserve it a single bit. Always like to interfere when me and sis is argueing and ALWAYS claim that I am in the wrong When he want to borrow money from my mum, He is all nice and promise to return it. When my mum got no money and press him for it, He just lie to her and tell her some stupid reasons for not being able to return her the sum of money. and the list just goes on and on about why my dad dont deserve to be my dad. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That day, me and sis quarrel over some small matters. She didt return me something that she is supposed to and promised to. When I told her about it, She just act deaf. Feeling pissed off, I scolded her. I hate it when she sleep in till late noon everyday when she can actually use the time to earn money instead of taking it from my mum. and that she is really LAZY. to the extent that she rather strave to death than go downstairs and buy food. Okays, so I made some comments saying that she is useless and a lazy bum. Then dad came back and my sis just cried. As you all could have guessed, I got a big scolding from my dad. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ The first time he scolded me. I shouted back at him cause it is totally none of my fault. In his eyes, it's always my fault. He always think that I am bullying my sister. and when she did anything wrong , she can get away with it easily. Cause my dad will always back her up and scold me or something. ----------------------------------------------------------------- The second time he scolded me, I acted deaf and watch tv. Which made him more angry. --------------------------------------------------------------- Then after that sis and him was preparing to watch dvd together. and she stupidly sit on the glass table and broke it. and dad shouted at me to go and clear it up when I am doing my project half-way. Which got me real pissed. I did't broke that glass table. It's totally none of my business. He got really angry after shouting at me to clear the things after a few attempts. Then what made him blow his top is when I stared at him. Then he started shouting at me and scolding me. saying that I am disrespectful to him and that I 'm not earning my own money now and I am already very rude to him when I am using his money. (which is so not true). Firstly, I didt use his money except for the monthly bus concession stamp of $52. My mum is the one of pay for my food and all the bills at home. Secondly, I am earning my own money, for goodness sake. Lastly, Respect is to be earned not demanded. So, please dont expect me to respect you when you are so totally not worth it. DAD. so what ? Being a male doesnt make you greater than a female and being the dad of the family doesnt make you the head of the family. & He threatened to NOT pay my school fees again. acting like he paid my school fees the previous semester and acting like without him paying it i will die. And hoping that I might be nice and maybe beg him to pay for me. Which he wouldt in the end cause he got no money left after giving it to that woman outside. I am not abit threatened by it. Cause I know that mum will pay for me like before and that even if she doesn't I can pay it myself. Then he say something about " don't think I don't know what you are doing outside. You are either going for stayover at your friend's house or bringing your friend over". That means he knew all along that I am together with baobei and we are not straight. whatever. The society is so open nowdays. You just walk along any streets and you can spot quite a numbers of not straight people. and for your information, I dont like girly girls! Maybe just butch. and I still like guys. & if my dad ever dare to question me about it. I am going to tell him that whatever he say is not going to stop me from anything. and he has no rights to do so as I dont want to be stupid woman like mum when I grow up Who get married with a guy like dad and have to tolerate him for so many years. hanging on to their marriage even when she jolly well know that my dad dont love her anymore as he got a woman outside. Cause of us, the kids. Mum said that she dont want us to suffer cause if she divorce dad , then we dont have a house to stay in anymore. Seriously, I'm sick of staying in the same flat with my dad. He throw temper at us and smoked so much that make our house so smoky and smelly. Last time when I was young, I can recall him using a cigar butt to burn my hand cause I didt stop crying when he ask me to.
& once, he tried throwing a ashtray at us, but missed cause we moved abit. If not, We would had bleed cause that ashtray is those hard and heavy one & that ashtray broke into many pieces when after he threw it.
Plus, He like to make us fear him by doing all sort of nonsense stuffs. Once, when I was 11 and my sister was 9. He throw us out of the house cause we dont wanto sleep early and he think all kids should sleep early. & it was like 2am in the morning. We only got back into the house after more than an hour. Can you all imagine ?
& He make everyone of us listen to his every commands. Which most of it is rubbish and in my opinion doesnt do us good. He forced us to cut our hair real short when we were young and make me do well for my maths by pressuring cause he liked mathes. wtf. when I get a 95 marks or something I would get a scolding instead of a praise cause I lose the other 5 marks due to careless mistake. Have he ever thought about how I earned the 95 marks due to my hard work, instead of the stupid 5 marks that prevented the perfect score? and the rest of the subjects he think that they are not so important. Fuck. I am not going to live in fear of him anymore now that I have already grown up. Chase me out of the house ? I can go and stay at my friends'. Big deal. & I am proud to announce that I am not going to take any money from him from now onwards. Not even a single cent. I'll work extra days to earn the money for my bus concession instead of taking it from him. He can save that amount of money to use when he grows old. Cause, I am not going to take care of him or give him money when I make my own money. Only to mum. Maybe, you guys might think that it is unfillial. But whatever, I think he deserve it.
From now onwards , if anybody ask about my family , I will say there's only mum and me , and maybe sis. |
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